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1.
Numb.
Dissociated.
Feeling my warm dripping blood.
Holding my wrist.
I hate myself.

2.
I hate myself because I am inhibited.
I hate myself because I am not trying.
I hate myself because I am afraid to try.
I hate myself because I am afraid to try to appreciate ( ).

3.
I cannot fathom nor comprehend ( ), but what I understand and more than anything, appreciate - is

what cannot be seen. ( ) Kindness, ( ) Wit, ( ) Depth, ( ) Sarcasm, ( ) Naivete, despite the

facade of vivid morbidity. ( ) Denial, ( ) Piety. And most of all, ( ) Uninhibited personality.

4.
I am at awe.

5.
IT -
"It" isnt blind;
You are just not perceiving.
You only perceive what they SEE.
What you WANT to SEE.

6.
Hear it. My angst. ( ) Concern.
Taste it. My saline wounds. ( ) Baked cake.
Feel it. My warm blood. ( ) Empathy.
Smell it. My death. ( ) Soapy hands.
But dont see it. You don't need to.

7.
I am different. Yet I am not.
I am inhibited, afraid to appreciate.
I am not raising ( ) into a pedestal.
I am lowering myself.


8.
I do not deserve this.

I am frustrated.
Leave me be.

( ).

NBA season winner predictions

MVP : Kobe Bryant
Rookie of the Year : Chris Paul
East Champions : Indiana Pacers
West Champions : San Antonio Spurs
Nba Champions : San Antonio Spurs
Sixth Man of the Year : Ben Gordon

NBA first team
C : Yao Ming
PF: Kevin Garnett or Tim Duncan
SF: Lebron James
SG: Kobe Bryant
PG: Steve Nash

Surprise team that will enter the playoffs:
L.A. Clippers

Gateway and Glorietta vs. Starmall

For the nth time, I've been denied entrance by security personnel at Starmall Edsa. Apparently, I violated their dress code (Note : No wearing of sandals).

Funny how I get into Glorietta and Gateway everytime using my same pair of sandals.

Poker night results

An awesome night of poker ended with Jubilee boys dusting off Eugene's boys. It was a cash game with blinds to 5-10 pesos in real money with the minimum buy-in at 100 pesos (most players bought in at 200, a more standard stack for the blinds). At the end of the night, here were the results:

Jim: +500
Jeco: +300
Popoy: Even
Eug: Even

Out of all of Eugene's boys, which were about 8 of them, only one came out with a profit at +100. The others all came away with a loss. At the end of the night, Marvin Sioco made an appearance and walked away with +250 busting one player in the process.

Jeco had an excellend night winning key pots with big hands. In one nice play, Jeco pushed all in at the turn with aces up and another player called with just AQ. Eug, on the other hand, started out slow as he only bought in with 100 and he was getting blinded off but after a long while, he finally doubled up when his JJ stood up against AQ. Popoy was the slowest to get going. He was severely depleted before going on a small tear. To regain his chips, he made an excellent play with his QJ paired against my AKs.

As for myself, I doubled up in just the fifth hand in an awesome hand I'll get to in a while. I played super tight the first hour just content on watching everyone play and picking up tells. Out of the whole night, the best hands I picked up was AKs (where I lost a big pot to Poy), 22 (where I lost a huge pot to Eug's friend who quickly cashed out after) and KQ, which everyone folded to pre-flop. The pots I won were only with suited connectors and I also got lucky with live cards (27o beating K9o!!!). Overall, I busted out 4 players.

Here's the awesome hand, the fifth hand of the night.

I checked the big blind with Q9 suited of diamonds.

The flop was Td Jd 6d (all diamonds) meaning I flopped the flush and an open-ended straight flush draw. I checked and a chubby newbie bet and I called.

The turn was the 9 of spades. I checked, the newbie bet again and I called.

The river was the 8 of diamonds giving me a queen high straight flush! I hoped that the fish had the ace of diamonds or at least a high flush so I checked. He bet again, I raised him all-in with the nuts and he quickly called revealing... QJ! He only had a straight that he made at the river. He called an all-in bet with no diamond to a four diamond board. Needless to say, I took all his chips.

So anyway, that was the night. Eugene's boys were relatively inexperienced. While some of them made a few nice plays at some points, they just weren't used to cash games. Well, I hope they come back soon. Glenn, dude, you missed out!

4 kinds of man

He who knows not and knows not that he knows not,

He is a fool, shun him;

He who knows not and knows that he knows not,

He is simple, teach him;

He who knows and knows not that he knows,

He is asleep, wake him;

He who knows and knows that he knows,

He is wise, follow him.