Tuesday, February 28, 2006

the philippines' first student run journal

check it out. well yung poster pa lang naman ang nakita ko but the idea behind it is nice. a friend of mine in lasalle and i thought this wasnt possible for at least a few years pa. never thought that with enough vision, tenacity, and the finances to back it up, the idea would be tangible here in the phils heheh. siguro years in making din to. kudos! =). http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/29132992/

Sunday, February 26, 2006

what was pure 20 years back

the 24th was a very frustrating day for me. frustrating personally, and frustrating for my sentiments towards the filipino psyche.

i deliberately didnt sleep on the night of the 23rd so that i can change my body clock and be able to go to school at around lunch time but all my efforts were in vain. to my surprise, i found out that classes and work was suspended for the day due to the arising "threat" of a coup attempt aimed at the administration. be as it may, the declaration had its warrants. but what caught my ire on the situation was the accompanying civil rallies especially the demonstrations held on the EDSA shrine. it seemed wrong. all wrong. i sadly think that the ideologies that people have been so zealously rallying about in EDSA during the 24th and the 25th, take note, the 20th anniversary of the 1st EDSA revolution are seriously altered from what the shrine meant years back.

admittedly, these personal sentiments are not completely to be taken with complete merit as i wasnt born at that time. who am i to tell them what is right and what is wrong? what they were bickering about was just and not merely a bastardization of what was considered as the filipino pride twenty scores back? but i understand one thing, EDSA is a symbol.

from what i know, the 1st revolution was a revolution against dictatorship. the 2nd revolution was against a corrupt governance. the commonality of these callings ("EDSA 3" isnt considered as such because it was violent and NOT because it was merely instigated by the social sectors who voted for then the incumbent.) is that EDSA is a shining symbol. it symbolizes unity amongst diversity. it symbolizes that common ideal can be achieved through unwaivering unity and a peaceful demonstration of a unified sentiment. that i understood. and about the place itself? merely coincidental. it was conviniently situated in between camp aguinaldo and camp crame.

the congregations during the weekend however wasnt anything near the aforementioned. it simply took the opportunity of the moment. and if only the people took the time to realize and appreciate what the people courageously and selflessly did 20 years ago, i assure you they would be completely ashamed of what they did. yes, they overromanticized and bastardized what was pure then. saddening. it truly is.

if the people want a change from the status quo, doing another EDSA simply isnt the way to do so. if what they are saying is true, that the administration and the incumbent are plunderers (ah, that remains to be proven heheh), if true, the administrations efforts and actions for national equilibrium are recognized. justifiable but immoral.

so, what the people are doing is wrong, but they are doing it for the right reasons; what the admin is doing is right, but they are doing it for the wrong reasons.

in the end, this blogger has complete confidence that the incumbent will finish its remaining presidential years. the admin is just shrewd enough to maintain its hold if dystopia arises.

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Para sa Masa

just thought it'd be suitable these days heh

ito ay para sa mga masa
sa lahat ng nawalan ng pag-asa
sa lahat ng ng aming nakasama
sa lahat ng hirap at pagdurusa
naaalala nito pa ba
binigyan namin kayo ng ligaya
ilang taon na ring lumipas
mga kulay ng mundo ay kumupas
marami na rin ang mga pagbabago
di maiiwasan pagkat tayo ay tao lamang
mapapatawad mo ba ako
kung hindi ko sinunod ang gusto mo
la la la la la la la la. . . . . .
pinilit kong iahon ka
ngunit ayaw mo namang sumama
ito ay para sa mga masa
sa lahat ng binaon ng sistema
sa lahat ng aming nakabarkada
sa lahat ng mahilig sa labsong at drama
sa lahat ng di marunong bumasa
sa lahat ng may problema sa skwela
sa lahat ng fans ni sharon cuneta
sa lahat ng may problema sa pera
sa lahat ng masa
huwag mong hayaang ganito
bigyan ang sarili ng respeto

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

The Riding

by Thackerson

Long and lost was I
riding towards the sea
out the ridge o'er the trees
The rivulet passes by

And ho, my brothers ride
merry along the way
to which no man hath gone fore
look back no more
look back no more

Sunday, February 19, 2006

American McGee's Alice

[if you havent seen of played this game yet, i suggest that you do. it's eye candy. im imagining this adaptation to be similar to those small scale b-rated movies with shoestring budgets and trashy scripts like doom and resident evil. god i hope the movie wont be that bad.]


Sarah Michelle Gellar gets ready to star in "Alice in Wonderland" movie
By Borys Kit and John Gaudiosi
Saturday 25 June 2005.

LOS ANGELES - Sarah Michelle Gellar is attached to star in a feature version of the Electronic Arts video game "American McGee’s Alice," which is itself based on Lewis Carroll’s "Alice in Wonderland" novels.

In the game, Alice has grown up to become a disturbed young woman. After her parents are killed in a fire, Alice returns to Wonderland, a dark and threatening place of looking glasses, mysterious potions, nonsensical tea parties and talking animals, confronting her fears and the wicked Queen of Hearts.

The film, "Alice," is set up at Universal Pictures, where it will be directed by Marcus Nispel, who shot the recent update of "The Texas Chainsaw Massacre." Gellar’s recent credits include "The Grudge" and the "Scooby Doo" films.

"American McGee’s Alice" became a critically acclaimed hit on the PC when it shipped in December 2000. The game received an 83% aggregate review score on Gamerankings.com, which helped Electronic Arts sell more than 488,000 units of the game and generate more than $11.8 million in revenue, consulting firm NPD Group said. The game was created by American McGee, a lead designer of the "Quake" and "Doom" series.

That same month, Dimension Films optioned the movie rights to "Alice" from Electronic Arts; horror veteran Wes Craven was attached to produce and direct.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

deconstructing subliminal messages in rainbow candies [part 1]

advertising is basically branding. branding is about strategic marketing. and strategic marketing bases itself on psychology, whether it focuses on personality psychology, or social psychology, it depends on the product and on the image that it wants to convey.

people do not wonder about m&m's, a popular chocolate staple in our inventory of high calorie diet's message because it is plain and simple. with its colorful pieces it is obviously a marketing strategy that aims to induce hunger and variety on its target market, the children, with its end goal of increased consumption (for a related reasearch, take a look at my paper about the effect of the variety on food preference). add the familiar ernie and bert colored peanut and plain flavored m&m for brand retainability purposes, and finally, its catchphrase "melts in your mouth, not in your hand" catchphrase, and you got one effective product branding.

another similar existing product is NIPS. innocently packaged as an alternative to the popular m&m's, one could not help but think about its impact (whether supraliminal or subliminal) on children's cognition, especially that this product has no mascot for visual retainability other than its colorful candies (an obvious rip-off to the mainstream m&m's), and it only has literary advertisments seen in aged commercials to back it up.

this research aims to deconstruct the branding of the said product, to analyze its social implications, specifically to the children, and finally, fill the void of knowledge in the field of developmental psychology, specifically on the effects of the branding of food to the childen's cognitive processes later in life.

due to time, resource, and motivational constraints, this research is limited only to basic literary analysis. a review of related literature, inline citations, are not possible. however, it is fortunate that this author was able to obtain a piece of literary advertisment of the said product, and careful dissection of its meaning is possible.

using jaques derrida's deconstructivism as an analytical tool for our one and only piece of hard data thus enables us to examine the manifest, latent, social (and political), and finally devonstructive levels of meaning of the said "jingle".

Wanna see what happens in a bag of nips
What goes on before it touch my lips
They make a rainbow, chocolate nips
A choco rainbow, chocolate nips
And then they color all the flowers
And became a tree....

presented before you is the advertisement jingle of NIPS. its manifest content speaks for itself.

when it comes to its latent content however, different interpretations arise. examining its first line, one cannot help but think on the meaning of bag of nips. what is nips really? what other interpretations can we have for it being in a bag?

recall what when we were in our prepubescent years, this was the time when our pituitary glands begin to send signals to our gonads to produce hormones to initiate the growth of our primary and secondary sexual characteristics. among those are the growth of beards, the advent of menarche, and particularly, the growth of the breasts. before the full growth of the female breasts, (for a related research on breasts, see my paper about the effect of breast size on male and female teenager interaction) it beggins with a budding or puffing of the female nipple. this "puff" is fondly teased girl cohorts (take note, GIRL cohorts only. why are male not included you say, pre-teen boys are simply not interested in budding nipples, barely poking out through girl's trainer sandos. again, read my research about the breast size and social interactions) as "grapes". one can only assume that it is because of its resemblance. the author has no way of determining the factuality of the said monicker. another popular monicker that girl cohorts dub for this budding protuberance is "nips", a shortened name for nipple, because it connotes the meaning "little nipple".

a bag on the other hand is simply a receptacle. but putting it in its literary context, it is possible that the bag is used as a receptacle for the nips, in its latent meaning, an object that holds the young woman's budding nipple. what else could it be other than a trainer bra or a sando bra? this solves the latent meaning of the first line of this jingle unfit to be heard and comprehended by the children's innocent psyche.

could it be possible that this rainbow chocolate alternative brands itself as a young woman's budding nipple? it could just might possibly be. latent content analysis of the succeeding lines allows us to put more rationalization.

[end of part 1]

Sunday, February 12, 2006

the one about vanilla sky

My dreams are a cruel joke.
They taunt me.
Even in my dreams I'm an idiot... who knows he's about to wake up to reality.

If I could only avoid sleep.
But I can't.
I try to tell myself what to dream.
I try to dream that I am flying.
Something free.

It never works...

Friday, February 03, 2006

the one about the show "friends"

there was a time that i loathed watching the show friends. in my delusional world, i had convinced myself that friends wasnt funny, had low-brow corny humor, and was not different from the other endless sitcoms that existed.

what's even weirder was that ive done the same for the show x-files..

but weirdest thing was that i convinced all of those to myself just to piss the hell out of mariane during my sixth grade elementary (still remember wil? heheh. oh yeah, sorry jim).

not only do i regret that now, realizing that i have deprived myself of enjoying the feel good show and the full appreciation of the concept of friends, but i just wanna say that i love you guys. this is what a friends marathon can do to you heheh.

this still however doesnt change the fact that i'd still wanna piss the heck out of mariane, just for the heck of it. i just can't help it. heheh =) (still remember wil? heheh. oh yeah sorry again jim).

the one about the casino

jeco, jim and i went to casino filipino last night to play some poker. it was my first time to go to a casino and to play a real big stakes money game. not the usual small buy-ins. this one's real big.

it was a 20/40 no limit table, no antes, with a 1000-5000 peso limit buy-in. jeco and i had a 3000 peso buy-in, while jim had 4000. man. just the thought of that, playing with that much of your own money would choke you. and admittedly, it scared the heck out of me at first.

we waited a little for the other people to sit-in and to play with us. not that i want to make them look sleazy or anything because theyre really not and they actually nice people, but the people playing there are real stereotype gamblers. old chinese geezers, old foreingers that look like dirty old men, mistresses, GI's, and drivers of rich dignitaries. we waited till the table was about 6-7 people sitting in, enough to make a short-handed game and we started.

jeco and jim advised me to play tightly when you go against these kind of people in these kind of situations. money was nothing to them. in some hands, they'd easily bet about 1-3k of their stack. yaiks.

so following their advice, i played ultra tight, playing mostly with premium hands, mixing up with a few marginal hands so that they would think that im a passive tight type of player.

i had my first real hand early on, cowboys to be exact and raised 300. everybody else folded except for one guy who called. in the turn, he pushed me with huge bet that'll take a huge chunk of my stack if i called and losed and i folded because i was worrying about him making a full house as there was a pair in the board. first bad move of the night.

there were also a number of bad moves that i made that made me lose all my stack and had to re-buy another 2000 to get back in the game. at one time jeco and i (stupidly enough) went heads up. i dunno if it was stupidity or a show of sexual tension or sumthin but we went heads up, instead of checking the board all of the way till the river. anywho my pocket snowmen got beaten by a sneakier full that made itself in the river. after that i was short stacked.

made my final stand late in the evening and i decided to go all in with a big hand. at small blinds i caught another pair of cowboys and decided to go all in. two other people called. at the flop, an ace came and the other guy made a huge bet that forced the third player to fold so it was heads up between us. turns out that my guess was right, no way would he call my all in if he had an ace. i was dreading that. got badly beaten by an AK. at least it bought me some time to reassess myself (i choked terribly) and get a snack at the carrels.

after my much need break i got back into the game and rebuyed with a 2000 stack to stay in the game. 2000 isnt much, you'll easilly get pushed around. a good stack to play with is about 4000-5000. played tight again until i pushed all in to double up. we left at around 1:30 in the morning after i played my last hand, hooks, that took another 400 or so from the guy to my right.

in the end i ended up with 4k+ (thats actually quite good if you consider me being a terrible poker player), while jim was down with about a thousand and jeco, up by more than three thousand, just enough to repay the money both of them lent to me, and learned a few lessons:

1. bring a good amount of money when you wanna play poker in the casino.
2. have a bankroll just for playing. dont use your own money.
3. never, and i mean NEVER think that it's real money that you're playing. it'll make you choke instantly and i guarantee that you'll lose.
4. play tight in these situations. i initially played tight, waiting for premium hands and tried position playing and realized it would goddamn matter to them. they're jackals and they wouldnt matter to them if you had rags or rockets to raise with. they would've called the same just to see the flop. outplaying them? its pretty much useless. it's better to fish for a card and limping in.
5. just check the cards till the end like what you do in online tables if you're going heads-up with a friend. hear that jeco? heheh.
6. its kinda fun and i want to try it again some time if i get to have a bankroll that can back me up. commissioned works anyone?

i'm thinking about practising some more (actually a lot more. haven't fully regained my poker esteem since my long absence from playing at online tables) and try tournament style next time. the playing there is entirely different and hopefully filipinos here wont act like smart alecs and blurt out poker stuff that they'd only heard about in the WPT. feeling. goddamnit that really fucking annoys me.